Brain smoothie #2
extra scoop of serotonin please
Need to collect my unraveled
//////filaments////////atoms/////////
You know what they say…….can’t unswirl jam from rice pudding!…..
“If you could stop every atom in its position and direction, and if your mind could comprehend all the actions thus suspended, then if you were really, really good at algebra you could write the formula for all the future; and although nobody could be so clever as to do it, the formula must exist just as if one could.”
(Thomasina in Tom Stoppard’s Arcadia)
…….::::::::…..I didn’t have enough good brain to make this last week because I got scattered by ig after months off the app. Screened out and tired. I wish I didn’t have to use it but I want to share my new work so FIGURE IT OUTTTTT ok. …..::::…….
Tell me more about quantum attraction. Have our atoms known each other before, are we related,., met J**** at PRS who was born on 2/11 and her father was born on 2/11 and his first name and middle name are the same as my brother’s first name and middle name and also my brother’s birthday is 2/11.
Use more symbols. The shell’s spiral for creation. Snakes for transformation — laying in the meadow last week, surrounded by holes and what if they all slithered up at the same time, I saw a rattler on my birthday. I’m a different person today.
“And now suddenly after an evening of ‘who am I’ and of waking at one in the morning still in despair — now suddenly at three in the morning I woke and met myself.” (Clarice Lispector, Agua Viva)
Months of “what am I,” done, maybe. Being so liquid got me spread until I drank too much of my own mixture, I found edges, I have facts. I want to be contained. (?????) (this feels true but contained in what??? Words?? No. Too tight. Time? I don’t want to conform but give me a schedule, tell me what to do, I need structure (sometimes), (when I want)(I change every moment) MAKE MY SLIPPERY DRY, nevermind nevermind
Unrelated (related)::: I can feel my curly hair growing in at the roots. Chemical-induced straightness my gooooooodnessssss
New words:
Mire - wet, muddy, spongey earth
Patina - green rust
Simulcrum- unsatisfactory imitation
Refulgence - being radiant
Ossify - to turn to bone, to stop changing
Hypostatize - to treat an abstract concept as reality
Ossify my mire,
our shadows simulcrums of
the fire’s
refulgence on your tongue.
Dry rain, green rust,
I’m serious.
Sure.
Reading Descartes, listening to A&W, watching the rain. I don’t believe in dualism. When I upset people, I spot.
Monism4life baby, and that’s on god.
There must be a difference between writing via pen or computer or phone. Is there an equation for this? Rate at which thoughts can come from fingers (computer typing) vs. hand (handwriting) vs. thumbs (phone typing). And what if they’re toned differently? What if your 10 fingers are more earnest than your 2 thumbs………..,,,,,,,,,,
BRAIN SEARCH: how many sentences have I handwritten vs. thumb written vs. finger written and is one more honest than the others
From yoga:
BREATH CONTROL BREATH CONTROL BREATH CONTROL
you can only receive if you’re open
Exhale longer than you inhale, it’ll relax your nervous system
60 minutes of laughing is the equivalent good for you as a full night’s sleep
I haven’t worn contacts in a month. And because I yoga without glasses, sometimes all I am is a blur in the mirror. D**** says to find your gaze (where the eyes go the body goes….) but I can’t see where my eyes are. The room is like underwater and the “pixels” of my vision melt so my body is a blur of colors and edgeless shapes. “me”. Very cool…..(?) But also it’d be cool if I could just make my vision perfect. I saw a video where this guy did everything right and it happened______
JUST DO EVERYTHING RIGHT AND IT’LL HAPPEN
I saw the rattler too. Hssssssss.
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